The Healing Crucible

Lay yourself on the slab of openness

and wait for the knife of my beauty

to gash you so deep with the Beloved's radiance

that you can never recover.

~ Rumi ~

From tonight's "Making Love with the Mystery" writing class...unedited thoughts...20 minutes of raw, naked exposure. Drink from the Naked Heart:

The healing crucible of Love's intimacy

Calling me to know

Slowly I open my eyes to see

A glimpse of the Lover I am

Of the Life that is birthing in each cell of my being

I am mad with Love

Angry, oh so angry

My innocence stolen

Clawing, fighting, teeth gnashing

Blood dripping from my hands, my heart

I pull myself back into myself

Wrenched free from my prisoner's grip

I fight, I wail, I scream

I let loose of the grip

The monster man, the evil one

And I fall, I fall, I fall

Downward I fall

Stomach gripping, silent screams

The lost one spiraling downward

Hitting ground, dust everywhere

I lift my head and look around

Where am I?

Who am I?

Am I alive or am I dead?

Terra firma, new soil

Back in the Garden of Eden

Lush living, sensual innocence, sexual grace

I lift my face from the ground of my fall

And find myself once again

In the Lush Garden of Eden

Me, My Lover

I am my Lover in the Garden of Eden

I am the beholden one

I am the desired and the desiring

I am the one who longs to take me

Down under into the realms of

Sacred Romance

Where heat burns in my belly

Love churns in my chest

Here I am the star in the passion play

The play for passion

I play, I pray for passion

Red, red, ruby red loving

I am sprawled out on my Beloved's bed

Ruby nipples exposed

Eyes dancing with desire's longing

Radiance dripping from each pore

Love's holy crucible

Making the elixir

Mashing poison

Extracting sweetness

The Beloved grooming me

Preparing me to receive

Love's blessing

Ecstatic bliss

In giving, loving, receiving

I am becoming the honey sweet nectar

Of Love's bliss

I am becoming pure manna

Nourishment, alchemy's nourishment

for my Beloveds

My legs long spiral round

Twisting, turning, loosening

Belly warming, softening, extending

Breath deepening

Voice raspy

Moaning

Eyes glossy

Present moment here I am

Naked beauty trembling before you

I expose myself

My past, my failures, my regret

My present grief, my sadness

My dreams, my fears

I stand open, naked before you

I tremble with your gaze

Piercing through me

Reading me like a sacred text

You who can see

The sacred text of my living

I shake, cells vibrate

I disintegrate

Bones to ash

A pile of rubble on the floor

Before you

I the I Am

Still alive, still present

In the rubble

Waiting

Wanting her Lover's breath to breathe

Her into being

She waits patiently

Dis-integrated

Distilled to essence

The fire's work

Burned to ash

The monument to self

The false living

Dead-end loving

Misdirected, missed direction

Gone

Done

Now, nothing left

Nothing

Void

Vessel

God's hand holding the dust of I am

Holding still

Wanting to live

Wanting to live

Wanting to be naked

Exposed

Distilled to essence

On the ruby red bed

of my Beloved

Exposed, full

Hot, radiant

Wanting to take her Lover

All the way home to God

Beloved, Lover, God

Trinity as One

The sun is setting on the days of healing

Of Crucifying, of Resurrecting

Beloved One

Anakha Shannon Coman

You dear one

Are coming home

Your innocence restored

Life and Living

Holy Ordered

At the new home of your Soul

Anakha, be still in the ashes

Wait patiently for

The Beloved's breath to come

To bring you to

The ruby red innocence

The full woman's radiance

Your essence revealed, restored.

Allow the birth, do nothing, Allow the Birth.

Come all the way.

Thank you to those of you that are witnessing this once in a life time turning into, becoming Love. I am humbled, I am wide open, I am trembling, I am scared and I so want, I so desire to fully make this journey, to be annihilated into Love, to become the holy vessel, the sacred crucible of Love. I, Anakha, the medicine, the elixir of holy, all-consuming, forever transforming Sacred Love. Amen.

Goodnight!