Raw Beauty

exposed, nowhere to hide
everywhere
all of me
spilling open
spilling over
heart pounds
mind races
how do i go back?
where are the pieces
of that finely crafted
wall?
can i pick up a few,
stick them back in place
for awhile?
can i run, leave...
abandon and abort
the mission
my soul is aching
to be free
liberated
from the constriction
of this world
this body
this mind
free to go
free to fly
free to be solo
solitary
quiet and inside.
like the pomegranate
split open
all revealed
for you to see
too much
too open
i am unraveling
from the inside
no place to hold
no place to cling
no one to anesthetize
my terror
of living
out of control
vulnerable
longing
loving
i am a beautiful
passionate
soft
wholly
holy woman
birthing self
creating life
one breath
one breath
one breath
at a time.
shell cracked open
raw beauty exposed
i am the naked heart.
i am.