La Vida Bonita

Chapelita ~ Ixtlahuacan de los Membrillos ~ Abril 8th

This is a picture of the chapelita that is near Delayne's home here in Mexico. On the morning of my 40th birthday we woke early and made the steep vertical trek to the top of the hill to spend time at the chapelita, to pray and light candles. When I reached the top I stretched out my arms vertically, then horizontally and made this prayer..."may I be expanded in my connection to the Divine and deeply rooted in the Earth...may I be a vessel of love, connecting Heaven and Earth, may I share the abundance of love and gifts that reside in my naked heart."

Today as I prepare to leave, I am feeling a peace beyond understanding, a deep connection to the earth and a calm readiness, a supple openness in my body and in my heart. I am grateful for this passage and I am ready to take my place on the holy ground of my own being and offer the inner pearl that resides in my heart as manna for my brothers and my sisters. I am grateful for the 40 years I have spent resurrecting my soul into wholeness and the completion that this time represents. Now, I turn ever so slowly, facing into the promised land that is my life, ready to live the years of milk and honey. The promise has been kept.

Thank you to all of you who are reading my words, I appreciate your presence and the connection that we share that is beyond words. I will soon be sharing 40 Practices for Embodying the I AM Presence...inspiration that found its way to me during this past week in Mexico. These are practices to powerfully apply the teachings that were presented in The Moses Code and they will also support the fusion and the embodiment of the mystical and the erotic in a way that blesses, heals, transforms and expands our being, our lives and our service to love.

I love you all and am deeply rooted in the knowing that we are truly amazing adorations and expressions of the One Power and the One Presence. And I am so grateful. Ameyn.

P.S. Angela/Angie: I received a message from you this week and somehow lost it while trying to save it. I would really like to hear from you again and would like to connect with you around your own awakening and emergence. Please email me again if you are reading this!

Navigating Our Mystical Erotic Awakening

"The unending sacred tremoring of consciousness in the body
is the supreme state!"
~ Lalla, 14th century poet and Kashmiri master ~

I am feeling full of love and gratitude...I am being encouraged as messages are coming in from all over the world...people feeling deep, core resonance with the path of waking up the sacred temple of the body and discovering the Heart of the Divine. This is the mystical erotic awakening, this is the Sacred Embodiment. I am that, I AM! Amen.

(Video blog included.)

Desire in the Lover's Heart

Desire burns in the Lover's heart tonight
Burning for no other
Only you
Deep within me
I hear your call
To ravage
To adore
To burn in the fire's of Sacred Love
To feel the heat of Sacred Passion
To become obliterated in the Ecstasy of Breath
Dissolved into the oceanic tides
of God
of Presence
This journey into Sacred Intimacy
with Self
with God
with Other
is turbulent at times
swelling beneath the surface
rolling
crashing
lulling
flowing
swirling
thrashing
nashing
releasing
coming
going
a holy terror
always precedes a holy love
here we meet our Beloved on the edge
of our own becoming
we face into the darkness
and reach blindly
for the One we will call
our own
our beloved
our soul
if we dare reach through
if we dare enter the fire
if we dare burn, burn, burn
into the ashes
if we surrender all of our
outdated and constricted notions
of love
and of loving
we will be granted
entry into the kingdom of heaven
the Divine will enter our hearts
our bodies

our souls
and rock us in the arms
of Sacred Union
the matrimony of God's Lovers
here we sway in the
mystical erotic
we call the divine into the body
we manifest the fullness of what
Jesus was calling us to...
to become fully human
to become fully divine
to embody all that it means
to be divinely human
the mysteries of Sacred Love
are being revealed to me
the teachings unlocked
from the inside...
I have gifts to share
to support you
in your journey into
being a full,
radically loving,
overflowing
juicy
inspired
compassionate
sacred
sexual

creative
expression
God in body
There are secrets to tell...
We are becoming Love!

P.S. Check my blog on Saturday or Sunday to view the latest video blogs on Becoming Love and Embodiment.

Letter from Nichole ~ Feb. 6, 2008

I thought you all might like to read the latest letter I received from Nichole...please go to http://www.freeheartfreemind.blogspot.com to read her weekly postings from prison. She is transforming...opening....healing!
*************
Anakha,

Last night I received a big envelope from Gene. It had his blog along with yours and the comments from Gene, David and Delayne. I sat down on my bunk, took a deep breath and before the words were even read, a tear fell from my eye. I didn't wipe it though, I just let it be a part of me in the moment. I sat there a moment later with my eyes closed taking another deep breath. I exhaled and opened my eyes. I read Gene's first. The re-cap of my "judgment day," sentencing day. Was hard to read, but good also. I need to know my part in this world. What memories I am leaving, what my presence in other's lives is effecting, building, giving, taking receiving.

When I got to yours I stopped and breathed in and out. As I started reading I could hear your voice, see your face...wishing I could. I felt so many different emotions from your words. Love, forgiveness, hope, dreams and awakenings jumped out at me. I was being told in a sense..."wake up Nichole, I am right here, I am not going anywhere, don't run from me, I will always love you."

Anakha thank you for taking the time to share your experience with me. I know I am not alone in this. I still wish I was physically there. Rewinding back a few months would be great. Sometimes it feels like a movie. Have you ever seen the movie "Click" it has Adam Sandler in it. It's really funny. You should rent it. In the movie he can stop, pause, rewind, fast forward. Some features could be good right now...LOL.

I am going to write about what I need, want in regards to our contract...but I don't know how you want it so will start with this:

I need to be called on my bullshit.
Structure
Hugs
Humor
A shoulder to cry on
Encouraged
Sometimes a good shove when I am shying away from a good time
Yoga and running
I need to get a degree
Help with the following through with Isaiah
To know how you think, feel, about potentially bad decisions or situations you feel me slipping into
Lots of advice

I probably have more...so I hope we can start with that. See how it comes together.

I am sending you the canteen order sheets so you know what that looks like. There are two of them. I wish you could see the shoes. They are really cute...pink, black and white Reeboks. How great is that. You know me and my pink! I am missing that and chai tea from Starbucks. I can't have a chai tea until I get to minimum. One year. Wow. Guess what you don't get paid for 4 months over here on medium. That is crazy to me. Do you think I should take vitamins. They are on canteen. Crystal knows about them and what is good. What do you think about me learning a second language, like Spanish. Been thinking about that too. I am really excited about doing something to earn a degree in here. I keep having vivid dreams about all this stuff.

Well I am going to work on my blog. It is amazing to know my story has a voice.

Love always,
Nichole

wild woman cacophony

Disrobe, dismantle, disarm, dissolve.
All of nature is turning.
Disrobing, dismantling, disarming, dissolving.
We are not separate from this process of Life becoming Life.
This is the great turning and returning of the Mother.
The dance of life, death and rebirth.
Our cells know this rhythm and lead us blindly,
pulling us directly into the darkness,
into the intimate territory of our Soul.
We are shedding the skins of worn out lives and exhausted ways of living.
We are returning, remembering and revealing the seed of life
nestled deep within the contours of our native shape.
What was the shape of your face before you were born?

I Am disrobing, taking off the costumes, the masks, the roles.
The props used for playing life trail behind me.
I Am dismantling structures, stories, carbon copy mechanisms, ancestral garbage.
I Am disarming, removing the shields, the braces and the bracing, the body's armor, dropping the weapons of the disembodied mind, the arsenal of poison used to inject truth with lies.
I Am dissolving, dissolving into union, dissolving all separation, dissolving a self that thinks itself other than.

I am exposed.
I am naked in the rain,
shivering, quivering.
White skin, dark night.
Hair sopping wet, clinging to my face, my shoulders.
Wind whipping my body, water pelting my head.
I open my mouth to speak and no sound comes.
I am screaming on the inside,
I am silent, no one can hear.
I am the Divine Feminine rising.
I am the Innocent Erotic returning.
I am naked.
I am exposed.
I kneel down on the wet earth.
The smell of fallen leaves and damp earth greet me.
I lay my belly on the belly of the Goddess,
I feel her pulse life into my being,
through my navel she enters me
this life force, this Christ force
She enters me, she enters my soul
impregnating me with the seed of life
She is sweet ambrosia
She is honey wine intoxication
She is filling me with life force
She is infusing my cells
She is taking me to her breast
to drink nourishment that
will warm me forever.
I awake out of my trance,
lying naked, wet and sweaty
on the dance floor.
It is dark and night has come
Where are the other dancers?
Who was the madman shaman that
came and drummed my heart into
this frantic shaking?
I pull myself to my knees,
my eyes squint in the darkness
I sense the wildness around me
the danger and the delight
of naked living lurks around
each and every corner,
waiting to take me captive,
entangling me in the fire
until I dissolve
into the Lover.
She is rising.
She is home.

Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide...and even if I could, tonight I don't want to.
I am slowly becoming accustomed to my own nakedness, my own porousness,
my availability to life --
the deep sorrow and grief, the emptiness, the void, the delight, the joy, the bliss.
I am coming into deep union with life,
No longer playing games of separation.
From Self, God and other.
I am becoming a Lover with all Lovers.
I am touched and touching.
I am breathed and breathing.
I am erotic, exotic, ecstatic awakening.
I don't remember the face of yesterday
I don't remember the levers I pulled
or the games I played to avoid
such rapturous and heart breaking intimacy.
I am being pulled, I am being taken.
I must have bought a ticket for this ride, yet I don't recall when.
Grace is creating my living now.
I pray that I finally and completely let go of all
that does not lead me to Love, to God, to Truth.
Strip away all that does not serve this silent awakening
Strip away all of the lies,
Like leaves falling steadily and ever so lightly,
I let go, I let go, I let go.

Today I learned again, that we deeply need each other.
We need each other to fly, to soar.
We need each other to move across the threshold into greater living and greater loving.
We need one another to find respite and balance in the chaos of Kali.
We need each other to hold us, lift us, relieve us of our internal nightmares -- the monkey's mind unleashed.
We need each other to come into joy, to find aliveness,
to revel in the moment to moment unfolding
of the ruby precious gem of who we really are.

I danced in wild abandon today...I danced naked.
I danced with one eye looking outward and one eye looking inward.
This is the dance that my Beloved Vinn demanded of me...evoked from me...
The mystic in action, the sacred in the real, the soul embodied.

I am the Sacred Feminine Rising.
She is rising. She is coming home.
I am rising. I am coming home.

I invite you to join me on this magic carpet ride.
The price? Your life and your living, your essence unfolding with wild abandon.
Destination? Ecstatic heart union, love's fiery embrace, naked heart living.

Let this be our mantra as we surrender to the turning and returning...
disrobe, dismantle, disarm, dissolve.

And so it is. Ameyn.