ultimate vulnerability

full exposure
no withholds in this love
that is the price
for sacred romance
we wonder why
why is it the flame
of passion
flickers and fades
we wonder why
the Beloved's face
has suddenly changed
we know
somewhere within us
we know
when we stopped revealing
our precious tender hearts
when the voice of fear
took over
the filtering
the editing
the masking
i vow to be different
i long for a new way of love
complete transparency
ultimate vulnerability
full surrender
of all that is whole and holy
of all that is fearful and fragmented
to the Divine Lover
to mend us my Love
to tend us in Love
to wash from us
the nightmares of the past
i want to lay down
in the ocean of God with you
and stare into the diamond
starry sky
i want to be lulled in love
held in love
i want it to be real
i want you to be real
how many times have
i misjudged,
or was it projection
attracted that which
i want not
can it be here now
a miracle of a new beginning
for you
for me
what if you stick a needle in your arm
what if you wander away
lost in your addiction
what if your hungry place
becomes ravenous
and you reach out
for someone else
for something else
what if i am your
mistaken idea
delusional fulfillment
of your own wholeness
what if
what if
what if
this love was new
whole
grounded
playful
sexy
hopeful
honest
joyful
freeing
devoted
passionate
prayerful
what if
you and i
were destined
to finally lay down
the skeletons of our past
the childhood wounds
and yes, love, there were many
too many
what if we could just
lay it down
right Krista?
you know you got to lay it down
you know you want to lay it down
now
can you
will you
can i
will i
will we
open up and see
what God has planned
what is growing in the dark
below the known
into the mystery
of ultimate vulnerability
a field beyond
this place
of rightdoing
and wrongdoing
i'm walking there
slowly now
one step
one breath
one humble word
at a time
a field of sweet
surrender,
precious Lord Jesus
take us there.
Amen.