Presence is the Currency of Love

I awoke this morning with the words, "Presence is the currency of Love," on my lips. Placed there with the kiss of Divine inspiration, calling me to write...to dive into exploring and expressing this process of embodiment...of Love becoming Overflowing Love.

Presence is the currency of Love. Do I dare wade into these waters of Love and share my unguarded Presence with you? I know the price of the ticket for this ride...nothing less than a full commitment to Truth, to moment to moment presence and naked awareness. This path of presence and embodiment requires ultimate vulnerability and essential integrity. Practicing maintaining deep connection to Presence means bringing the consciousness of Love into each now moment, nothing is outside of Love...despair, fear, hatred, addiction, lust, joy, sadness, delight, ecstasy, expression, repression...Love holds all, neither prefers nor rejects. Love is the All within All. Presence her currency.

What is this Presence that I am speaking of? It is a full immersion in the now...a deep connection to the breath, the senses and the truth here present now and now. It is an attunement to what is...in the simplest form...here is my now moment...

I am sensing a stinging in my eyes from the lotion I used this morning, I am sensing a churning in my belly of warmth and energy, my chest is warm, relaxed and breath is flowing easily into and through my belly and my hips, my genitals, my thighs and feet...breath is flowing through me, I see the screen of the computer a blurry surreal sense to it with a candle flickering behind the screen, I smell the musky scent of my Jack Russell Terrier, Jack, curled up next to me on the couch taking a morning nap, I hear the sounds of the dishwasher humming in the background, swishing and swirling, I am feeling happy and content, grounded and aware, grateful and tender. I am trusting and loving myself in this moment. I want to share the fullness of my love.

Through this presence I am dropping deeper into essence...breath becoming fuller and deeper...chest opening...stillness dropping me into a center of calm. I have the sensation of a core of energy from the top of my head extending down through my pelvis. This core feels like a trunk or a root...an extension rod that is connecting me to the transcendent...the expansiveness of the Presence, and the immanent...the manifest expression of the Presence. Both are occurring simultaneously. This is uniting heaven and earth through the practice of embodiment. This is Ehyeh Asher Ehyeh...I am that, I am, experienced through deepening into now, awareness of sensation, awareness of breath...Naked Awareness as a practice of embodiment. This is where Deep calls to Deep, where our Souls linger in hopes of courting our awareness and bringing us into deeper knowing and seeing. From this place we become united with Sacramental Perception...a seeing and a deep somatic understanding that everything is holy, wholly...everything, every person, every emotion carries the seed of the sacred, the flame of the holy. Grow that seed...fan that flame. Naked Awareness leads to Sacramental Perception. In this place of naked awareness, of breath, of inner stillness, of deep rootedness, of sacramental sight...we become porous to the Presence of Love and beauty and joy that is here to bring us into cellular sensitivity and aliveness...feel...feel ...feel...sense...breath...the Presence breathing you into Life each moment ...we are being breathed from the inside...the Presence, the indwelling Presence is here to breath you into aliveness, with each breath our cells are stirring...they are waking up with the consciousness of Love....they stir, tickle, delight...head to toe...an energetic consciousness awakening in the body...the awakened body coming into being...this is the initiation into becoming a ordained vessel and instrument of the Presence of God...a divine human embodiment. Allowing the desire of Life...the allurement and energy and attraction and the passion and the Will to Live come alive in the core, fanning the essential life force...Eros in the body.

Sit still with me now as you read these words breath into Presence and allow the Presence to breath into you...make love with this moment with your breath and naked awareness....feel all of life conspiring to bring you into this full aliveness and radiance. You are loved, you are loved...you are love, I am love...our breath exchanges this love...it carries the One Love...exchange this love breath. The Love Breath, breathing inside, breathing outside...the meeting of conscious breathing and the spontaneous breathing...that of being breathed into being by the Divine....feel yourself being breathed into being by the Divine breath that emanates from the internal eternal essence....from your core...your core is breathing...it is not a function of the lungs...it is the indwelling presence that animates you, that inspires you and moves you into being, into form through each breath. This is how we are a constant becoming...the indwelling spark ignites each moment and we are made new in this image and likeness. What would it be like to fully come into Presence and become new in each now moment...to truly connect with this truth...by feeling, deeply feeling and experiencing the Spirit of God within you breathing you into Life and newness each moment...how would it be to feel welcomed on this earth...to feel this Life calling you into form, beckoning you into manifest form...the whole choir…the symphony and cacophony, of life...the angels, the archangels...the invisible Life and the visible life of nature, water, trees, subways, people, structures, pavement all conspiring to say Yes, Yes I am here now created anew in this moment.

This interaction and interplay and deep exchange I am having with this life is calling me forward and I am actively creating the presence of Love through each now moment that I bring Loves' presence and naked awareness...the Love breath creates. I am that, I am. Tingling, alive being breathed into being. I am free to be and to create with unguarded, naked presence. To receive and conceive of an essential Divine inspiration that will feed and nourish and sweeten the life and the living…mine, yours…ours. In this place I feel an embodied oneness with all Life…the visible and invisible unifying, one is held with in the other…the visible holds the seed of the invisible and the invisible holds the seed of the visible…they make love to one another, their relationship is one of interdependence and mutual receptivity and reciprocity…this is the marriage of the masculine and the feminine. Unifying through Presence…this is the sacred marriage. This has eluded me as an esoteric concept for many years…what is the embodied experience of this union and sacred marriage? How do we create the conditions to lure it into our lives? A deep and at times excruciating surrender to the call to live, to live, to live…to surrender the forms of death that we enact…the numbing…to move beyond the numbing of our aliveness to surrender to the pain, the grief, the despair, the isolation that is often the precursor path to birthing union. Ultimate vulnerability…surrendering the structures, mechanisms, patterns, systems of safety…the lies, the deceit, the hiding, the using, the manipulation and control…we can eeeek this release out one by one…or we can just lay it all down. I suggest we Lay It All Down…to surrender and donate all of our life and our living to the fires of Divine Presence, to serve Truth…Love…to lay down our small ways of being so we can be the brilliance and the radiance of the I AM that lives within and between and all around.

I AM breathing you into existence each moment is new, new awareness, new consciousness, a new creation. This is what it means to forfeit ideas of who I am, who you are and who we are together. This moment is new, a new arrival, a freshness, a joy. An intimacy with life….Intimacy with Life for the way you “make love” is the way God will be with you.

Intimacy with life, ahhhh…yes the ultimate vulnerability to life, to God, to Self, to others…a most vulnerable and porous and potent place to reside in full presence…nothing as powerful, a creative force to unveil and unmask to make ourselves ultimately vulnerable to life and to love is to guarantee obliteration into love…beyond worrying about life and death…a deep surrender to revealing ourselves and our hearts and our bodies and our brilliance and our despair…our darkness, our light…which precedes which? Inseparable the prisoner and the guard. Intimacy with life…ultimate vulnerability and revealing of need, of want, of love, of desire, of soul…being penetrated with the gaze of life, the gaze of the other…my eyes burn yet I want this fire…I see and feel this fire and I know it…I recognize it as my own…as the Spark and the Flame that I carry, that we carry…yet to be seen naked with the glance of the Beloved…the blemishes and blunders seen with the eyes of the Beloved become pearls…alchemized…lead becomes Gold. This is the gift of giving the sacred heart…donating one’s being and living to love…we become vessels for this divine human embodiment and give this sacred medicine of love to one another where are deepest wounds can be exposed and healed…under the true sight and vision of the Beloved…our seeing of one another in our darkness, in our woundedness and seeing the beauty, seeing with unrelenting, fiery love is essential to our collective homecoming. Come, let us disrobe in this upper room (upper room of the radical love and tenderness of God consciousness) let us disrobe in this upper room, take off the masks, lay down the sword, slow the pace, deepen the breath, stop the game, time out…let’s be here now…take off your clothes, they hide your beauty, they hide your wounds…disrobe with me Beloved and in this disrobing, let us reveal these place of self hatred, of self rejection, of self repression…drop your look good…surrender that game…and the madness that it brings…disrobe with me, expose those wounds to my love, to my light…let me bring you my healing salve, let me nurse you with the tenderness and sweetness of my breast, I will place my nipple to your mouth and bring you to life with the love of God. And in this place of the upper room, in the crucible of love I will see you, standing naked, wounds, vulnerabilities, brilliance, beauty…yes this is where we reveal the beautiful and the ugly and see it as one, one Love…in this place, where two or more are gathered in this innocence and love we fan the flame and the fire burns, we bring the love breath and the fire burns, we throw off, we lay down all that we have been carrying and the fire burns…we jump in…we burn…we burn…we burn…we rejoice in this burning…screaming, laughing, the ecstasy of burning, the ecstasy of death…take from us Beloved , from all….from all that does not bring us closer to you…to be the embodiment and expression of love. Where two or more are gathered in the upper room, in love’s fiery crucible, the indwelling presence, the immanence and transcendence will join in this holy alchemy…this process of calcination…ashes to ashes, dust to dust…we disintegrate…dying to who we have been, the image and likeness of the golden calf must die to give rise to the true I AM image. We die together, we rise together. This is the intimacy of Life, now. This is the intensity of Love’s fire. This is the immensity of the call that is upon us. What is my answer, how will I respond? Will I numb myself or will I surrender to the burn…the true burn? It is a choice, I am at a crossroad…I am beyond the crossroad…I am at the edge…I am over the edge…tumbling…I am falling into ecstasy…sweet ecstatic agony. I am here solid like a rock, porous as air, flowing like the waves, tender as the blade of grass reaching upward, I am relaxing and opening.

I am the blossom of life, I am.