El Sagrado Corazon

El Sagrado Corazon burns tonight, keeping watch as I pray in the darkness of my room. My prayer...to have love infuse, infiltrate, invade all of my relationships and my relating. With God, myself, my family, friends...with all of life and with all of us journeying into love.

The candle will burn all night...a ritual to invoke, to summon the fierce and tender, radical and relentless love of Christ Yeshua.

As I try to sleep, I hear this calling upon my heart.

"Stay in...stay in...stay in this fire, Beloved.

No matter what it looks like, feels like...

No matter where it takes you

Stay in and burn.

Burn in this love, for true and lasting and embodied love.

Most leave when it is uncomfortable, challenging.

Yes, I have left a thousand times.

The ego has a million excuses...masquerading as rationale...as intuition...as guidance.

Enter the garden of this love and lock the gate.

Stay in until you become medicine for one another.

I am asking you to stay in with me,

To stay through the crucifixion...for the beauty and the glory of the resurrection.

For me, for you, for love.

I know this isn't what you thought it would be

I know I am not who you thought I would be

Will you go beyond your illusions of what is love and what is not?

Will you walk with me through this fire?

And emerge with me...

New, renewed...forever changed, forever marked by this Love.

Will you go with me...enter the garden...lock the gate...take back Eden before the fall?"

One People, One Heart, One Journey

~ The Moses Code Peace Vigil and Premiere at One Wellness Center ~
Guadalajara, Jalisco, Mexico ~ Gilberto, Anakha and Gabriel

I hadn't even been in Mexico 24 hours when I found myself walking into a room full of people gathered to participate in The Moses Code peace vigil and to watch the movie...a bit surreal for sure. I was warmly welcomed by the two owners of One Wellness Center -- Gilberto and Gabriel (in the picture above). I was treated like a princess...no stranger in a strange land experience here! I was deeply touched and moved by the warmth and love and devotion of the people gathered and their deep desire to be instruments of love and peace on the planet in this time. I believe the Mexican people have so much to teach us about embodiment, about slowing the pace, living in the consciousness of "enoughness" and fully embracing spirituality and sexuality as one beautiful manifestation of God. I will keep myself open to the teachings of this place and these people this week while I am here. More to come...more to be revealed.

After meditating and watching the movie, they asked me to speak and answer questions. Gilberto was translating for his first time. At one point he looked at me smiling...completely overwhelmed by the speed of inspiration that was flowing...we laughed and embraced and I did my best to slow down.

Afterwards my friends Delayne and edd took me to Abuela's Terracio (grandmother's terrace) for chips, guacamole and a salad. We eventually headed back to the village Delayne lives in for a swim in the late afternoon sun. What stands out for me about today is the love I experienced with these people, their adoration and the palpable desire that emanated from their hearts. True embodiments of the Presence. I am grateful and I am curious to see what this week's adventure reveals. Traveling outside of the US always brings me into a deeper connection to the indwelling presence and brings a clarity of purpose. I welcome this experience!

My heart is full, my eyes wet with deep gratitude for our collective journey home...home to ourselves...to one another...to the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth...for that is the essence of God embodied. I love you all. Te amo! Anakha

P.S. Gabriel and Gilberto spent the last 5 days translating The Moses Code into Spanish and adding the subtitles! A labor of love for sure! Gracias hombres!

Becoming Fully Human...Fully Divine!

"Do not remain in sorrow and doubt, for his Grace will guide and comfort you. He is calling upon us to become fully human," Mary Magdalene, The Gospel of Mary Magdalene ~The Gnostic Gospels.

In walking the path of fully embodying our divinity and humanity -- bringing God and Love into the center of our hearts, minds, bodies and lives -- we will come face to face with the chaos and wildness that we most fear and suppress. We will be asked to have an authentic relationship with our spiritual, sexual and sensual selves. We will be brought into connection with our own natural wildness and unpredictability. We will experience an intimate relationship with life and with others and will experience the beauty, the chaos and the vulnerability that is inherent in nature. This is where we will discover the Presence of Love...of God. This is where we will enact a powerful and palpable and embodied faith. This is where we will fulfill Yeshua's commandment, "Love one another, as I am loving you."

James Nelson writes in his book Between Two Gardens: Reflections on Sexuality and Religious Experience: “The mystery of sexuality is the mystery of the human need to reach out for the physical and spiritual embrace of others. Sexuality thus expresses God’s intention that people find authentic humanness not in isolation but in relationship.” Whether we are single or married, gay or straight, it is in that messy, demanding, confounding, delightful chaos of human relationships that we find our way to God.

It was one year ago this March that I set out to awaken in love, to awaken my own Sacred Heart and to discover the path, the process, the principles of living an embodied Love. My journey over the last year has brought me face to face with areas of my life and aspects of my self that I had previously judged or held as separate from God. Now, more than ever, I believe it is critical that we bring an embodied faith that includes sexuality, intimacy, eroticism, authenticity, community, relationship and love into the heart of our religious and spiritual practices and discussions. We are not meant to hide these aspects of ourselves and our lives "under a bushel" for they hold the aliveness and the ripeness of God and need to be recovered, remembered and reclaimed in the light of our individual and collective wholeness. As I make peace with these aspects of myself, I bring peace to the world. It is from this place of embodiment that we can do as Yeshua said, “I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.” (John 14:12)

I am grateful for this assignment of learning the path of embodiment, walking the path and undergoing the transformations to fully embody my own divinity and humanity. This is the path of the undivided. I invite you to join me in this journey into Sacred Love.

Amen.

{This video blog is the first in a series of three.)

Universal Love Conspiracy

In this moment my heart is breaking open...there is so much to say and so little to say.

I love you...I am loving you.

My friend Johnny recently made a comment about my blog..."it is one continuous love letter, Anakha." I believe he is right. One long love letter...the face of the Lover and the Beloved may change, the form of Love may change...and yet the core, the essence remains untouched, preserved in its innocence, its beauty, its sweet and tender continuity.

The essence is my love for, my devotion to and my donation of my heart, my life and my living to the fire of love that dwells in the center of the sacred heart, the one global heart.

I am here to love...I am here to become essential Love. I am here to embody and express love.

The Universe is relentlessly pounding on my heart today. Pounding from the inside, pounding from the outside. My heart is being expanded, broken open...more love than I ever dreamed possible is flowing through my veins...pumping out the old limitations and circulating a radically new love force. My blood is the blood of Christ. My body the Kingdom of Heaven. This is the experience of "Christing," this is the experience of living the truth that the Kingdom of God, the Kingdom of Love lives within me and within you. We are the sweet encounter, the holy intersection where Lover, Loving and Beloved become One.

I am breathless, my mind numbed, stilled by the ecstasy of the heart and the magnitude of the Love that resides there.

This breaking open comes in so many forms...all ecstatic, some bittersweet...heartbreak, loss, betrayal, grief, disconnection...reconciliation, communion, intimacy, sweet love, forgiveness. All conspiring, swirling together to open me, to open me to love and loving.

I am becoming God's lover. This is both my destiny and my destination.

Today I awoke head in pain, heart spilling open, eyes filled with hot tears. I breath, I lay still, I listen for the call to love. I place a call to my brother Kip, I extend my love, I lay my heart open...and after years of missing one another...of heart to heart estrangement...connection happens...a miracle occurs. "I love you, my love is unwavering, my support is unwavering. I want to offer an open invitation for healing what lies between us," I say. "I love you and I will remember this open invitation. I am glad you called," he says.

We are one, he and I. We share the same heart.

This is the sacrament of reconciliation. Extending ourselves in love, being relentless in our loving. Loving beyond our constriction, loving beyond our fear, loving beyond rejection, loving beyond betrayal. Forgiving what seems unforgivable. Knowing that love always reaches, loves always prevails. We might not see it in this moment, or in this year, or even in this lifetime....

And, Love always reaches, always prevails...endures all, hopes all, believes all, forgives all.

Today I made a decision to love....I made a decision to radically love myself and to radically love others. To resurrect love in the darkness. I am the Love Project...this is my 24x7 work in the world. To fulfill and fully live the commandment given to me by the greatest love of my life, Yeshua, "Love one another as I am loving you." Det haboon had l'had akayana d'ena ahabtekoon.

I Anakha am The Love Project.

I have spent the first 40 years of my life resurrecting myself in Love. I will spend the next 40 years sharing the mysteries, the transformations and the teachings of Sacred Love with the world. My life is the message. My experience the teachings.

I began a pilgrimage last Thursday, March 28th initiated by a letter to Nichole (http://www.freeheartfreemind.blogspot.com . A pilgrimage that will take me deep into my heart to unlock the teachings of love that live inside of me. I will spend these 40 days, culminating on my 40th birthday in this process of resurrecting the sacred heart mysteries, the mysteries of our individual and collective transformation and transfiguration into Love.

I am humbled and I am honored to be here now and to hold this assignment with honor, with integrity and with deep, deep reverence.

I packed my bags this afternoon and returned to my sanctuary in Forest Park where I will write for the next month. I am so filled with love and gratitude...I am weeping...heart opened in gratitude, in love, in joy, in heartbreak, in sweet, sweet surrender.

I am resurrecting Sacred Love, I am.

Forever Yours in Love,
Anakha

Awaken in Love

What happens when your soul
Begins to awaken
Your eyes
And your heart
And the cells of your body
To the great Journey of Love?

First there is wonderful laughter
And probably precious tears

And a hundred sweet promises
And those heroic vows
No one can ever keep.

But still God is delighted and amused
You once tried to be a saint.

What happens when your soul
Begins to awake in this world

To our deep need to love
And serve the Friend?

O the Beloved
Will send you
One of His wonderful, wild companions ~
Like Hafiz

Desire in the Lover's Heart

Desire burns in the Lover's heart tonight
Burning for no other
Only you
Deep within me
I hear your call
To ravage
To adore
To burn in the fire's of Sacred Love
To feel the heat of Sacred Passion
To become obliterated in the Ecstasy of Breath
Dissolved into the oceanic tides
of God
of Presence
This journey into Sacred Intimacy
with Self
with God
with Other
is turbulent at times
swelling beneath the surface
rolling
crashing
lulling
flowing
swirling
thrashing
nashing
releasing
coming
going
a holy terror
always precedes a holy love
here we meet our Beloved on the edge
of our own becoming
we face into the darkness
and reach blindly
for the One we will call
our own
our beloved
our soul
if we dare reach through
if we dare enter the fire
if we dare burn, burn, burn
into the ashes
if we surrender all of our
outdated and constricted notions
of love
and of loving
we will be granted
entry into the kingdom of heaven
the Divine will enter our hearts
our bodies

our souls
and rock us in the arms
of Sacred Union
the matrimony of God's Lovers
here we sway in the
mystical erotic
we call the divine into the body
we manifest the fullness of what
Jesus was calling us to...
to become fully human
to become fully divine
to embody all that it means
to be divinely human
the mysteries of Sacred Love
are being revealed to me
the teachings unlocked
from the inside...
I have gifts to share
to support you
in your journey into
being a full,
radically loving,
overflowing
juicy
inspired
compassionate
sacred
sexual

creative
expression
God in body
There are secrets to tell...
We are becoming Love!

P.S. Check my blog on Saturday or Sunday to view the latest video blogs on Becoming Love and Embodiment.

Vegan Erotica

I have been avoiding writing this morning...something deep is stirring within me, there is fire in my belly, a very powerful energy pulsating, building and expanding. I sit down to write, check my email several times and respond to a request to speak in December. Okay, now I am ready to face the page, to face you...myself. Insteeeeeeaaaaaad...I quickly click the mouse and find myself at www.freewillastrology.com -- I'll just check my horoscope first and thennnnn I will write. I take a drink of water as the Aries horoscope downloads onto the screen, I take one look as I take a gulp of water down the wrong pipe, water sprays as I choke on the words
"Vegan Erotica."

Aries (for week of October 4th)
Vegan Erotica is a company that sells S & M bondage gear suitable for vegans. Its whips, harnesses, collars, cuffs, and restraints are made of fake leather. So it's now possible for you to conduct puckish experiments with sexual power dynamics and yet not be responsible for harming any animals in the process. This development serves as an apt metaphor for your current astrological omens, Aries, which recommend a paradoxical blend of tenderness and force, a judicious mix of compassionate concern and playful aggressiveness, and daring attempts to pull off mischievous healings.

I am not sure how this fits with all that I am experiencing right now...although, I am sure it does, perfectly. I am feeling a very powerful energy building in my core...it started in my yoga practice as soon as I hit the mat this morning. Sitting cross legged, I began to undulate like the Kundalini snake, moving my spine and awakening the fire. Bam...my cells started to wake up like I have never experienced. An energy I might call rage or maybe primal source energy...I am unsure and don't really want to name or contain it. Each cell began to burn and expand bumping up against some border pushing to break through limits or limitations. It was uncomfortable...like each cell was attempting to give birth and expand...pushing... pushing...pushing. Aaaaah...ummmmmmmmmm...ffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuckkkkk...I couldn't contain the sounds or the energy....it is still moving as I write. Cells in my thighs and arms and feet especially are argggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh needing to break free, my cells feeling claustrophobic in the body...need to be free from the prison of the small body and liberate into the awakened body. My cells are waking up and expanding in my body. Ohhhh...yes, they are waking up and feeling and moving....uhhhhhhh. There is a birth happening within my body and each cell is waking up to birth this new sacred woman...sacred, sensual woman rising. Every cell reaching, stretching, expanding, struggling against membranes that constrict, breathing in they expand and constrict and expand again.

Yikes...what is happening? My belly on the other hand is perfectly content. A warm fire is burning in my solar plexus expanding out and delighting my midsection -- belly...fiery warmth is rising up, creeping up into my heart. My power is being expanded into the heart...my power is being connected to my heart -- oh thank god...yes, this is what I want my power connected and used by my heart. My feet are too small for this cellular expansion...they are wanting to stretch toes stretched out reaching for the sky....Oh my God...what is happening...my eyes are moving dilating, wide open and my head is swirling.

Birthing sacred source energy in the body and in the cells. An embodiment of source energy is occurring breathe and allow, be still -- don't dissipate. This is crazy God...what do I do...where is my midwife? Breathe....breathe...

Are you still with me? Intensity, immensity, intimacy = Soul Grandeur...a life of magnificence...I have spoken these words to 1000's of people by now...and now this is happening in my body...intensity, immensity, intimacy...my Soul is expanding in my body, through my body...oh no...my Soul is coming back into my body.

Can you tell I am writing to you real time...naked...moment to moment...you are receiving raw awakening Source energy today Beloveds. Wow!

My heart is pounding as my fingers clack away at the keys...my body is awakening and liberating my soul from the prison cells. I am breaking free. I am coming home. I am love awakening, I am Anakha Shannon Coman embodied in the I AM.

More later...I am going to drink some water...and breath. Just this morning I felt like I had hit a plateau with this process...writing about the same thing, I said a quiet prayer to God...let me write from the deep today.

Here we go, I feel another surge of the Tsunami coming...grab your boards Beloveds, let's surf this wave together. This is the silent, sacred heart awakening. Ameyn.

Mahalo,
Anakha

P.S. Hey, anyone available to do body work with me...I think I may need some!

Numbing the Sacred Heart

Where am I? Some semblance of me is sitting here in front of my laptop at 9:44 p.m. on the first day of the correctional officer's trial...my body is here...my mind is sort of here...but where did my heart and spirit go? On hiatus I suppose...took one look at the courtroom and heard the conversations surrounding it and decided to get the hell out of dodge! I don't blame them...although my body and mind are somewhat contentious now after being left behind.

The only real and true thing I did today was pray with "Jane" before the trial in a little room at the courthouse full of chairs that said "broken" on them. Broken...yes, broken hearted, broken down, broken apart, broken open, broken. Tears streamed down my face as I prayed with her...affirming that Yeshua was with us...that we are always connected to the True Vine, I was fully present in that prayer and then...hiatus...

My heartbreak happens when the Truth I know is such a far cry, such a huge distance from what I see and experience in the real. My heartbreak happens when I feel tenderness and compassion for the officer who looks like the walking dead...disconnected from her own I AM-ness, lost in the darkness. How can this be...how can this happen? I become rattled, disoriented, confused and then the leaving starts moment to moment the numbness comes to cover the despair, the disorientation, the confusion. I become someone unknown to myself. And as I watch I come to know her story as my story...the leaving of Self...the seperation to avoid the pain.

I tried to find my heart and spirit in the ecstatic dance gathering tonight...the best I could do was to be present within my disconnection...to find my breath, to fill my belly, to see my feet, to watch others in their joy and encourage them in my silent prayer. I wanted to shake it off...all the sadness, fear, despair, numbness and outrage...and even that was not happening. I needed to feel it all...to see my response...to see how I numb my own ecstatic heart by not wanting to feel disrupted, discouraged, disoriented by what I experience in the world.

I numb my heart by becoming a robotic machine moving from one thing to put in my mouth to another...from one thing to do to another...trying to find the antidote...some external miracle cure. And then, through the Grace of God, I stop...I see and I watch and I breath and I sit down to write and in my writing I make this offering...this little prayer.

Yeshua, My Beloved
Help Me to Stay Awake
Help Me to Feel
Help Me to Love, Radically and Redemptively
This World and all of its Brokenness
This Human Community and its Forgetfullness
My Own Heart and its Tenderness
Help Me to Keep Your Vision Alive in My Heart
Help Me to Behold Your Christic Salve, Your Radical Love
Bring Your Wholeness and Blessed Oneness to Us All
Through Your Wildly Sacred and Thoroughly Uniting
Lover's Heart...Ameyn.

I love you all...
Blessed Night,
Anakha

Kombucha and Yeshua

Here I go...my foray into blogging...somehow after my Kundalini yoga practice this morning, I found myself opening a bottle of Kombucha (citrus) and setting up this blog. I am not even sure why...although most of my actions and decisions of late come from a place beyond knowing and understanding...sometimes it feels as if I am bumbling along, yet all the while I am being lifted, inspired and heavenly guided by the Presence of the Divine Heart...the Living Christ...the Embodied Yeshua. Ho...hum...things are humming and buzzing in the world and the world of my awakened body this a.m. My heart feels a faint sadness...a dizzying grief that is dancing across the face of the world these days. One of my teachers, Andrew Harvey, says we are in a collective depression...a numbness to ourselves, one another and the despair of the world. How can I wake up today...how can I live the joy in my heart and also hold compassion for our collective Dark Night...it is a constant dance of becoming real, becoming true...That is my quest right now...in each moment to find the joy...to express the love and to source all actions, all expressions from the Truth that resides in my belly, in my pelvis, in the root and in the sky...the Truth that when revealed will contribute to the healing of the world and the emergence of our collective and most ecstatic heart. Live with me through this dance....love with me through this creation...hold with me through this letting go...let go...let go...let go. This is the way of the Ecstatic Heart...abandonment to the Scared Heart, adoration of Christic Love and allowance of the Holy Spirit to guide and order all of our holy interactions. Tetey Yeshua...Come into our lives, Infuse us with Your Grace, Your Elixir, Your Love! Ameyn!