Entering the Crucible

In this video, Anakha brings us reassurance about the nature of the Crucibles that call to us now...and what will happen once we stop resisting Love's presence and say "yes".

Let us surrender to the fierce, tender, radical Sacred Love...letting it burn away our emotional pain and struggles.

Let us move beyond the half-hearted "yes" we often give to Life...and remember, always, to not be afraid.

Become Love!

The invitation at this time in humanity's evolution is clear: become love.
Dive into the crucible that calls you...and become love.
There is only ONE thing happening on this planet right now...the full embodiment of the presence of love. The call grows stronger. All you have to do is say "Yes".

Forever and Ever Amen...

The Essential Love Infusion ~ Forest Park, Portland, OR

Be thirsty heart, seek forever without a rest.
Let this soundless longing hidden deep inside you
be the source of every word you say.
~ Rumi ~

What is this soundless longing that drives my desire for intimacy, for soulful connection? What memory of God is stirred when I feel the rain drops on my face and smell the freshness, the dampness of the forest? It is the memory of I AM.

I am this moment. I am this freshness. I am this greening. I am this blossoming. I am this wetness. I am this springtime bursting open with the Scent of the Sacred. I am this, we are.

Stillness enters me, life awakens my body from the inside. I breath in, I breath out. And I know, simply, truly that all I've ever wanted, all I've ever longed for was this deep and true experience of Omniversial Love.

I am grateful for the abundance of Love in my life. I am grateful for the web of connections, the heartstrings that play the invisible melody of forever. I am in you, you are in me. Together we are the I AM.

And so it is. Ameyn.

Touching the Absolute

Touching the Absolute

Robin's Egg and Pink Flower (Unknown)
~Forest Park, Portland, OR~

Right from the start, situate yourself outside of spiritual progression,
Outside of contemplation,
Outside of seeking,
Outside of skillful speech,
Outside of meditation on the divinities,
Outside of concentration and recitation on the texts.
What is, tell me, the absolute reality
That leaves no room for any doubt whatsoever?
Listen carefully!
Stop becoming attached to this or that,
And, dwelling in your own true absolute nature,
Take pleasure peacefully in the reality of the world.
~Spandakarika, Song of the Sacred Tremor~

This is the 5th day of my raw juice feast and I am feeling the sacred tremoring in my body and in my life. My sense are becoming heightened -- smells, sounds, sights are especially stimulating and sometimes unnerving. This is a rarefied, clarified and refined state of being. What is my intention for the feast? To connect more directly, purely and honestly with my own nature, my essence and my rhythmic self. Who am I really in an undiluted and unpolluted state?

I wonder why I venture from this way of living, this state of being? I wonder why I entertain the numbed fear state in my body and in my life? Why do I want to avoid the embodied life at times? Why do I veer from the ways of being that are the fulfillment of my deepest desire? I believe that, up until now, I have had a limited capacity/ability/willingness (all of the above) to feel and fully experience desire, ecstasy, intimacy, presence and to allow myself to be sustained in this state. Do I deserve it? Can I afford it? Is this real? Am I avoiding? Will I pay for this bliss later? Today, all of these questions dissolved and I let myself be fully present each moment. One moment beautifully cascading into the next with the grace of my own breath. No striving, no seeking, no resisting...allowing, trusting, opening, enjoying the connection with my own nature. In this place I am embodied, in this place I know the sweet taste of oneness, of belonging, of true love.

Today, I let myself be. Experienced Being. Dissolved into Presence.

I took a walk in Forest Park (http://tinyurl.com/27mfbp) this afternoon. Eight days ago I placed water in mason jars at the base of several cloisters (I prefer to think of them that way) of Trillium -- both white and pink. The essence of the Trillium is "true love" -- it is referred to as the "herb of true love." I am making a flower essence that I will bottle and offer to people that are wanting the support of nature and the planet in walking this path of embodied love. Today I checked on the jars, repositioned some and added a new one. When I picked up one of the jars (which three of my teenage girlfriends placed for me) I was amazed at the tremoring vibration of love...clear, powerful, vibrating, singing love that was emanating from the jar. Joyful love, ecstatic love, enduring love. I am thrilled about this project and am grateful for the Divine guidance that introduced me to this idea. (If you are interested in the Essential Love infusion, send me an email.)

Logging off now. Must go finish my apple, beet, carrot, spirulina concoction. I will be sharing more about the Spandakarika -- the sacred tremoring -- and my ongoing practice of presence and embodiment. Until then, my sage advice (giggle) -- is LET GO, LET BE, BE FREE!

Amen. And yes, I do confirm this with the entirety of my being!

RevA

Believe Yourself a Whole

Believe Yourself a Whole
Edward Carpenter

Believe yourself a Whole...
These needs, these desires, these faculties --
This of eating and drinking, the great pleasure of food,
the need of sex converse and of renewal in and from the bodies of others;
The faculty of sight, the wonderful panorama of the visible, and of hearing;
The inquisitive roaming brain, the love of society and good fellowship;
The joy of contest, the yearnings of Religion, the mystic impulses of night, of nature, of solitude;
All these and a thousand other impulses, capacities, determinations, are indeed Yourself -- the output and evidence and delineation of Yourself.
They cannot (in any permanent sense) be peeled off and thrown away;
They spring inevitably deep down out of yourself -- and will recur again wherever you are.
There is no creature in the whole range of Being from the highest to the lowest which does not exhibit these and similar capacities, or the germs of them, in itself.
You are that Whole which Nature also is -- and yet you are that whole in your own peculiar way.

Believe yourself a whole...allow everything...every aspect...embrace yourself in totatlity....perceive yourself from essence...look upon yourself...the world, with sacramental perception. Everything is holy...adore yourself...adore the world. Believe yourself a whole. Amen.

La Vida Bonita

Chapelita ~ Ixtlahuacan de los Membrillos ~ Abril 8th

This is a picture of the chapelita that is near Delayne's home here in Mexico. On the morning of my 40th birthday we woke early and made the steep vertical trek to the top of the hill to spend time at the chapelita, to pray and light candles. When I reached the top I stretched out my arms vertically, then horizontally and made this prayer..."may I be expanded in my connection to the Divine and deeply rooted in the Earth...may I be a vessel of love, connecting Heaven and Earth, may I share the abundance of love and gifts that reside in my naked heart."

Today as I prepare to leave, I am feeling a peace beyond understanding, a deep connection to the earth and a calm readiness, a supple openness in my body and in my heart. I am grateful for this passage and I am ready to take my place on the holy ground of my own being and offer the inner pearl that resides in my heart as manna for my brothers and my sisters. I am grateful for the 40 years I have spent resurrecting my soul into wholeness and the completion that this time represents. Now, I turn ever so slowly, facing into the promised land that is my life, ready to live the years of milk and honey. The promise has been kept.

Thank you to all of you who are reading my words, I appreciate your presence and the connection that we share that is beyond words. I will soon be sharing 40 Practices for Embodying the I AM Presence...inspiration that found its way to me during this past week in Mexico. These are practices to powerfully apply the teachings that were presented in The Moses Code and they will also support the fusion and the embodiment of the mystical and the erotic in a way that blesses, heals, transforms and expands our being, our lives and our service to love.

I love you all and am deeply rooted in the knowing that we are truly amazing adorations and expressions of the One Power and the One Presence. And I am so grateful. Ameyn.

P.S. Angela/Angie: I received a message from you this week and somehow lost it while trying to save it. I would really like to hear from you again and would like to connect with you around your own awakening and emergence. Please email me again if you are reading this!

Navigating Our Mystical Erotic Awakening

"The unending sacred tremoring of consciousness in the body
is the supreme state!"
~ Lalla, 14th century poet and Kashmiri master ~

I am feeling full of love and gratitude...I am being encouraged as messages are coming in from all over the world...people feeling deep, core resonance with the path of waking up the sacred temple of the body and discovering the Heart of the Divine. This is the mystical erotic awakening, this is the Sacred Embodiment. I am that, I AM! Amen.

(Video blog included.)

One People, One Heart, One Journey

~ The Moses Code Peace Vigil and Premiere at One Wellness Center ~
Guadalajara, Jalisco, Mexico ~ Gilberto, Anakha and Gabriel

I hadn't even been in Mexico 24 hours when I found myself walking into a room full of people gathered to participate in The Moses Code peace vigil and to watch the movie...a bit surreal for sure. I was warmly welcomed by the two owners of One Wellness Center -- Gilberto and Gabriel (in the picture above). I was treated like a princess...no stranger in a strange land experience here! I was deeply touched and moved by the warmth and love and devotion of the people gathered and their deep desire to be instruments of love and peace on the planet in this time. I believe the Mexican people have so much to teach us about embodiment, about slowing the pace, living in the consciousness of "enoughness" and fully embracing spirituality and sexuality as one beautiful manifestation of God. I will keep myself open to the teachings of this place and these people this week while I am here. More to come...more to be revealed.

After meditating and watching the movie, they asked me to speak and answer questions. Gilberto was translating for his first time. At one point he looked at me smiling...completely overwhelmed by the speed of inspiration that was flowing...we laughed and embraced and I did my best to slow down.

Afterwards my friends Delayne and edd took me to Abuela's Terracio (grandmother's terrace) for chips, guacamole and a salad. We eventually headed back to the village Delayne lives in for a swim in the late afternoon sun. What stands out for me about today is the love I experienced with these people, their adoration and the palpable desire that emanated from their hearts. True embodiments of the Presence. I am grateful and I am curious to see what this week's adventure reveals. Traveling outside of the US always brings me into a deeper connection to the indwelling presence and brings a clarity of purpose. I welcome this experience!

My heart is full, my eyes wet with deep gratitude for our collective journey home...home to ourselves...to one another...to the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth...for that is the essence of God embodied. I love you all. Te amo! Anakha

P.S. Gabriel and Gilberto spent the last 5 days translating The Moses Code into Spanish and adding the subtitles! A labor of love for sure! Gracias hombres!

Blossoming...Awakening

Wooden Shoe Tulip Farm

Mollala, Oregon

4.3.2008

We are blossoming
Opening
Each and every one of us
In our own time
Finding our own way
The one purpose
To reveal essence
Allowing the natural unfolding of Life
And Love...
Occurring effortlessly
With beauty, tenderness and grace
We are the I AM
Connected in Presence
We are Heaven
We are Earth
We are the Silent Awakening...
Amen.

Cellular Awakening

Becoming an embodiment and expression of the Divine Presence requires that we awaken and activate the consciousness contained in our cells. We do this by moving at the pace of the universal heartbeat "the pace of oneness"...slowing to our natural rhythm and bringing breath, "ruach," (Hebrew: Spirit, breath) fully into the body. This video blog discusses how we can begin to bring God into the body and enact the Christ consciousness in the world.

Christ has no body now on earth but yours,
no hands but yours,
no feet but yours,
yours are the eyes through which Christ's compassion
is to look out to the earth,
yours are the feet by which He is to go about doing good
and yours are the hands by which He is to bless us now.
~ St Teresa of Avila ~

Becoming Fully Human...Fully Divine!

"Do not remain in sorrow and doubt, for his Grace will guide and comfort you. He is calling upon us to become fully human," Mary Magdalene, The Gospel of Mary Magdalene ~The Gnostic Gospels.

In walking the path of fully embodying our divinity and humanity -- bringing God and Love into the center of our hearts, minds, bodies and lives -- we will come face to face with the chaos and wildness that we most fear and suppress. We will be asked to have an authentic relationship with our spiritual, sexual and sensual selves. We will be brought into connection with our own natural wildness and unpredictability. We will experience an intimate relationship with life and with others and will experience the beauty, the chaos and the vulnerability that is inherent in nature. This is where we will discover the Presence of Love...of God. This is where we will enact a powerful and palpable and embodied faith. This is where we will fulfill Yeshua's commandment, "Love one another, as I am loving you."

James Nelson writes in his book Between Two Gardens: Reflections on Sexuality and Religious Experience: “The mystery of sexuality is the mystery of the human need to reach out for the physical and spiritual embrace of others. Sexuality thus expresses God’s intention that people find authentic humanness not in isolation but in relationship.” Whether we are single or married, gay or straight, it is in that messy, demanding, confounding, delightful chaos of human relationships that we find our way to God.

It was one year ago this March that I set out to awaken in love, to awaken my own Sacred Heart and to discover the path, the process, the principles of living an embodied Love. My journey over the last year has brought me face to face with areas of my life and aspects of my self that I had previously judged or held as separate from God. Now, more than ever, I believe it is critical that we bring an embodied faith that includes sexuality, intimacy, eroticism, authenticity, community, relationship and love into the heart of our religious and spiritual practices and discussions. We are not meant to hide these aspects of ourselves and our lives "under a bushel" for they hold the aliveness and the ripeness of God and need to be recovered, remembered and reclaimed in the light of our individual and collective wholeness. As I make peace with these aspects of myself, I bring peace to the world. It is from this place of embodiment that we can do as Yeshua said, “I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.” (John 14:12)

I am grateful for this assignment of learning the path of embodiment, walking the path and undergoing the transformations to fully embody my own divinity and humanity. This is the path of the undivided. I invite you to join me in this journey into Sacred Love.

Amen.

{This video blog is the first in a series of three.)

Manifesting "I AM THAT, I AM"

How can we free ourselves from the prisons of the mind and fully embody the Divine Presence in each moment? How can we activate the creative Life Force within our own Presence to powerfully create a life of Soul fulfillment? With the premiere of James Twyman's new movie, The Moses Code (www.themosescode.com), it is clear that we are ready to make an essential shift, liberating ourselves from the Pharaoh of Fear and fully inhabiting the Divine Presence, the Promised Land, within our own lives. Watch "Manifesting the I AM THAT, I AM" in this video blog.

Universal Love Conspiracy

In this moment my heart is breaking open...there is so much to say and so little to say.

I love you...I am loving you.

My friend Johnny recently made a comment about my blog..."it is one continuous love letter, Anakha." I believe he is right. One long love letter...the face of the Lover and the Beloved may change, the form of Love may change...and yet the core, the essence remains untouched, preserved in its innocence, its beauty, its sweet and tender continuity.

The essence is my love for, my devotion to and my donation of my heart, my life and my living to the fire of love that dwells in the center of the sacred heart, the one global heart.

I am here to love...I am here to become essential Love. I am here to embody and express love.

The Universe is relentlessly pounding on my heart today. Pounding from the inside, pounding from the outside. My heart is being expanded, broken open...more love than I ever dreamed possible is flowing through my veins...pumping out the old limitations and circulating a radically new love force. My blood is the blood of Christ. My body the Kingdom of Heaven. This is the experience of "Christing," this is the experience of living the truth that the Kingdom of God, the Kingdom of Love lives within me and within you. We are the sweet encounter, the holy intersection where Lover, Loving and Beloved become One.

I am breathless, my mind numbed, stilled by the ecstasy of the heart and the magnitude of the Love that resides there.

This breaking open comes in so many forms...all ecstatic, some bittersweet...heartbreak, loss, betrayal, grief, disconnection...reconciliation, communion, intimacy, sweet love, forgiveness. All conspiring, swirling together to open me, to open me to love and loving.

I am becoming God's lover. This is both my destiny and my destination.

Today I awoke head in pain, heart spilling open, eyes filled with hot tears. I breath, I lay still, I listen for the call to love. I place a call to my brother Kip, I extend my love, I lay my heart open...and after years of missing one another...of heart to heart estrangement...connection happens...a miracle occurs. "I love you, my love is unwavering, my support is unwavering. I want to offer an open invitation for healing what lies between us," I say. "I love you and I will remember this open invitation. I am glad you called," he says.

We are one, he and I. We share the same heart.

This is the sacrament of reconciliation. Extending ourselves in love, being relentless in our loving. Loving beyond our constriction, loving beyond our fear, loving beyond rejection, loving beyond betrayal. Forgiving what seems unforgivable. Knowing that love always reaches, loves always prevails. We might not see it in this moment, or in this year, or even in this lifetime....

And, Love always reaches, always prevails...endures all, hopes all, believes all, forgives all.

Today I made a decision to love....I made a decision to radically love myself and to radically love others. To resurrect love in the darkness. I am the Love Project...this is my 24x7 work in the world. To fulfill and fully live the commandment given to me by the greatest love of my life, Yeshua, "Love one another as I am loving you." Det haboon had l'had akayana d'ena ahabtekoon.

I Anakha am The Love Project.

I have spent the first 40 years of my life resurrecting myself in Love. I will spend the next 40 years sharing the mysteries, the transformations and the teachings of Sacred Love with the world. My life is the message. My experience the teachings.

I began a pilgrimage last Thursday, March 28th initiated by a letter to Nichole (http://www.freeheartfreemind.blogspot.com . A pilgrimage that will take me deep into my heart to unlock the teachings of love that live inside of me. I will spend these 40 days, culminating on my 40th birthday in this process of resurrecting the sacred heart mysteries, the mysteries of our individual and collective transformation and transfiguration into Love.

I am humbled and I am honored to be here now and to hold this assignment with honor, with integrity and with deep, deep reverence.

I packed my bags this afternoon and returned to my sanctuary in Forest Park where I will write for the next month. I am so filled with love and gratitude...I am weeping...heart opened in gratitude, in love, in joy, in heartbreak, in sweet, sweet surrender.

I am resurrecting Sacred Love, I am.

Forever Yours in Love,
Anakha

Awaken in Love

What happens when your soul
Begins to awaken
Your eyes
And your heart
And the cells of your body
To the great Journey of Love?

First there is wonderful laughter
And probably precious tears

And a hundred sweet promises
And those heroic vows
No one can ever keep.

But still God is delighted and amused
You once tried to be a saint.

What happens when your soul
Begins to awake in this world

To our deep need to love
And serve the Friend?

O the Beloved
Will send you
One of His wonderful, wild companions ~
Like Hafiz

Naked Desire

Come Naked!
Come Naked!
Come Naked...
Before God and this Sweet Universe
Naked with Your Desire
Naked with Your Longing
Naked with all Your Beauty
Naked with all You Fear is Ugly
Revealed, Exposed
Ready to Break Open
And Spill Over the Edge
The Edge of Becoming
God, God Embodied
Empowered
Holy in Your Wholeness
Secure in Your Stance
Devoted in Your Desire
Forward Movement
Soul in Motion
Divine in Action
Strike a Pose for God
Drench Yourself in God
Dedicate Yourself
To All That Brings You Alive
Dance
Dive In
Love
Pray
Desire
Donate Yourself
Your Whole, Holy Self
Your Messed Up, Crazy Self
Your Sinner Saintly Self
Donate Yourself
to the Fires of Love
and
Burn.....................................................
Burn....................................................
Burn....................................................
Until all that is left
is your Desire
Down on your knees
you look up
and find yourself
face to face
with your Desire
and....then, only then
Can you truly become
Devoted
Devotion Embodied
Desire Enacted
Divine Deliciousness
Coming into Form
Fear no more
Find the pulse of your desire
In your body
Pry it open
Shake it loose
Expose it
Reveal it
Crack it open
The Code lies within you
The I AM Code
The I AM Code
is the Desire of Becoming
Embodied
in God
as God
for God
I am God, I am.
I am one with Desire, I am.
I am one with Devotion, I am.
I am one with the Good, I am.
I am one with Love, I am.
From discontent to devotion
The Path of Desire
Leads the Way
Home to Soul Fulfillment.
God is All There Is.
And God is just another name
another Holy name,
for all that You Desire.
I speak this truth to the world,
for the world.
It is so.
Ameyn.